.drain.you.like.bloodlush.

Sat, 27 Aug 2005 00:56:28 GMT

im famous in nameless city.

rear ends, and stocking bends,
it's a casting call,
...that never ends.

Thu, 09 Dec 2004 18:45:50 GMT

Your Porn Star Name is: Candy Coxx

Tue, 23 Nov 2004 04:52:10 GMT

...inside this girl...
i am heart and sole
soul alone and confined,
a deadened end...
so lost shall you find.

lies lay still,
a minus land suggestion,
flail to foot my free man...
in companies' cogestion.

so she cries
turned corners of back light
and memory mirrors that trace your voice...
im the last night.

you, a man to be dead or alive
you...
you were my last fight.

Fri, 15 Oct 2004 07:34:18 GMT

How to make a bloodlush

Ingredients:

5 parts friendliness

3 parts humour

1 part ego

Method:
Add to a cocktail shaker and mix vigorously. Top it off with a sprinkle of sadness and enjoy!

Personality cocktail
From Go-Quiz.com

Thu, 14 Oct 2004 01:49:15 GMT

in you -
in you i see december
i see the rotting eye
the constant death of forever
the rebirth of i

in tactful skill and compass
a northern sink nor sky,
to lay amungst the begotten roots,
and play amung the stye.

in you
i see a future white and grey,
the pictures show not black or blue,
but now i know that only you will do.

i am sad but human.

Sat, 02 Oct 2004 01:24:41 GMT

...i am sad but i am human...
of the deepest kind,
to soothe souls that long of sorrow,
id like to sit here still if you dont mind,
and id like to sit here again tomorrow.

and read this pamphlet on where to go from here,
to memorize the maps where morning comes,
id like to paint a blueprint so its fairly clear,
and id like to paint a blueprint with all eight fingers and just my thumbs.

the next day i will walk around this corner,
and sit on every bench,
to see which position makes the sun look better,
and to see which position allows my hands to clench.

and after that im not quite sure,
i never really was,
cause the day i started coming here
was the day i fell in love.

Sat, 25 Sep 2004 22:19:42 GMT

to revert to something more familiar,
id like to remember when everything died,
when every memory was new,
so that i could be new too.

Mon, 13 Sep 2004 06:20:26 GMT

bullet holes calling me home.
call me out. branch me out
im the lone dead catacomb.
do you believe in doubt?

Sun, 12 Sep 2004 05:55:10 GMT

PARENTAL

ADVISORY

BLOODLUSH CONTAINS
EXPLICIT LYRICS

From Go-Quiz.com

.H+.

Sat, 11 Sep 2004 02:55:55 GMT

im sick inside this dead
oh dread.
to pry between the skin,
entitled by your marks within
though more visable than mine
mine are of the same kind.
i told the lady twice,
i told her...
i told her id put my own neck between her vice.
to scream and swallow- ill live twice.
but more than spoon feeding,
her eyes and analysis theyre quite decieving.
hello hello im still bleeding.

.whats dead. faithless brainless head.

Tue, 07 Sep 2004 03:25:40 GMT

borrowed and new, ive been dressed up too.
and now youre here with me
where the sadness lies in the dreams you keep
and the days go by like bullets on fractored bone.
...and you sleep... and you sleep.
while he whispers i once knew a place,
you know theyve continually found you; theres no point to cease.
from the brow to the breast they have learnt
that behind these eyes lays a mind to decrease.
... so they see... dont you please?

Mon, 30 Aug 2004 06:35:53 GMT

wait they dont love you like i love you

.dreams.

Sun, 29 Aug 2004 20:38:32 GMT

in a road of hollow stories
outside the city lights,
there lays a body
enchanted by midnight.

she lays in glittering green,
so maybe this blackness will see,
she belongs in the orchard of dreams
this is where she was meant to be,

above the opal clouds,
there are faceless creatures weeping,
while between the wind and sand,
her body lays seeping.

in a road of hollow houses,
outside the realm of real,
there used to be a girl,
who was able to feel.

.you.are.not.

Wed, 25 Aug 2004 03:05:54 GMT

to most of more and taken from
your bodily fluid
ive drowned in some
swam shallows core to toe
to taste the shores,
and veins you will never know.
to live inside your skin,
three days for three years,
ill fuck you within.
let me leave you a note before i begin.
i want inside you.
to see every place you have been
to breath in the wind
to feel all of your sin.

this tailgate ride

Mon, 09 Aug 2004 03:59:48 GMT

wednesday in sundays best,
left palm revolver,
and the right up her dress.

anal glovin' and daytime lovin,
youre no shiley temple
but youre better than nothin

jimmy wore boots in platnium leather,
had a hit switch fist,
loved little suzy but she could do better,

unlike anything you could read in some book,
he knew she'd be a get away girl,
betcha she can take on any look,

x's on maps and plans like no other,
packed up a bag with wigs and red boots,
jimmy promised suzy he'd love her forever.

they cruised in black cadilliac style,
made love to mirrors in grungy motels,
they had eachothers blood in a vile.

he made the plans, she did the pitch,
innocent smiles but bullets in bags
she had hips that could make any man itch.

she was so desirable while makin the doe,
jimmy loved her in his leather and even her lace,
he loved her even more when she'd give him the blow.

she was beautiful, he was bad,
he loved each lady in every single town,
he ripped poor suzy of all the insides she had.

after all, he promised forever,
so she cut out his heart,
all vindictive and clever.

Sat, 07 Aug 2004 06:08:17 GMT

slow suicide
in a room that breathes as you do
shallow and still.
you dont breathe at all, do you?

id wait here...

Sat, 24 Jul 2004 21:21:07 GMT

your face in frost bite sky,
my heart in your hands.
slow breathing - no beating,
id wait here just still.
when your name is my sin,
no measure of time - no place where youve been
i could never fail you,
id wait here until,
if i could see as ive said,
silent lies - seven truths
just to be something to you
id wait here for thrill.
what it is to wait here
to tie my own noose
if this were real i'd do it for you
id wait here for the kill.
if seperate from stars,
no sun in the third, no son at all,
if there were difference in existance,
id wait here against my will.
once promised id never be left,
id follow your step - the memories ive kept
no fee - no regret,
id wait here even still.

.old.

Tue, 13 Jul 2004 06:19:56 GMT

ive prayed for something calmer
a sea that barely beats
a rising inclination - a fading sun
but none defeats
ive dreamt of something sweeter,
a place of nothing more,
where bodies lie in shadows
where the sun will burn you
to your very core.
ive wanted life in hideout,
ive lived it barely free,
they cut you breast to belly,
so that i could breath as me.
i speak to no one wiser,
at least no one with names.
ive been waiting here for hours,
to let my mind set pace,
i bled these precious memories
so just one could see my face.

.arg.

Wed, 31 Mar 2004 07:13:06 GMT

.eyes half open.no hospital.boredom.contemplative but too tired.drive me away.save me.please.?.

.1.2.3.

Tue, 30 Mar 2004 07:25:01 GMT

cycles of old. theyre throwing me all over, like my sharp edges against a dart board, but i dont stick. im not stuck to you, im only interested because you gratify my selffishness. you exist to please me but i cant tear myself away, even when you do. what i thought was coming, wasnt really there... i was hearing the vibration of your voice but not feeling you moving away. in my mind youre already so far away, but youre still there... and then they come in circles... like cycles. cycles of old. but new... tying up ends and mending the edges... theyre of one, two, three... theyre ending, to mean nothing to me? or changing to satisfy... theyre just cycles. cycles of old.

.boredom.

Mon, 29 Mar 2004 21:43:35 GMT

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Your Love Is...	Gentle
During Lovemaking You Act...	Like a volcano, hot & steamy
Your Partner Is...	Your slave
Your Partner Has Said That You...	Are a great lover
Your Love is Summed Up In A Quote.	"One must know how to seduce"

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Your Superhero Persona by couplandesque
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Superhero Name	The Scotsman
Super Power	Irresistable Sexuality
Enemy	The Cheating Boyfriend
Mode Of Transportation	Skateboard
Weapon	Cheese Cutter

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Worshippers:	Communists
They show devotion by:	Not working on the sabbath (or any other day)

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.all.the.stars.are.just.like.little.fish.

Sun, 28 Mar 2004 06:40:10 GMT

im still sick, i must be annoying people with my whining. ill stop, or ill try to stop... sorry!

didnt get a call last night. not yet so far, im giving it an hour... which is the usual time. probably not, funny how the littlest things can fuck something up.

last night i talked to three drunk people on msn at the same time... most entertainment ive had on the internet in a long time. One of them left a message on my nexus saying i should have fucked it when i got the chance. degrading? maybe. i laughed though.

nothing exciting is going on... im bored... i want to talk to a specific someone, who is surprisingly not the said phone call. kandie is sick. she has pnemonia(sp?)... i hope i dont get it. ew.

boredom on saturday night... no one else is as pathetic as i am. haha

"No time like he present
To get ripped apart
Got this burning desire
Aiming straight for your heart"

.metric.

Sat, 27 Mar 2004 08:47:18 GMT

is metric all ages, my pets?

.someone.save me.

Fri, 26 Mar 2004 17:27:54 GMT

i need soup... i need to whine and complain... im sick. fucking flu... kandie, i will get you back for infecting me.

someone switched up a comment i said about my friend mark, and it got back to him... pisses me off... i hate when people talk about me and they dont even represent what i said with some accuracy. thanks mister... i will be sure to confront you... and let kandie know what an asshole you are...

also, my art teacher phoned this morning, late assignments... im waiting until spruing break to catch up... but i have to do that now instead... so sick.

marc, the ex, phoned the night of metallica... just FUCK OFF already... you exit my life and reenter at will, nope.... doesnt work for me.

my cousin is coming back from bc the 2nd - 3rd of april... im suppost to introduce him to a few of my friends considering he might be moving here.... weird? maybe... he's like 10 years older than me, which is ok cause most of my friends are 5 - 8 yrs older anyways... but still... i havent spoke to my cousin since i was 12.

metallica was good... james stopped singing at points cause the crowd was just too loud at singing his own lyrics.... that must be an awesome feeling... knowing that a crowd full of people care enough to memorize YOUR lyrics... that will be me one day.

thats about it on the chantelle front... if anyone feels like bringing me soup please do... until then i am off to sleep... on the phone until 5:30 + sore throat + anger + boredom = sleeping all day.

p.s. i took new pictures. hot. now dont get too excited.

.metallica.

Wed, 24 Mar 2004 13:48:59 GMT

it's 6:41... just got to kandies... im going on one hours sleep and i cant stop thinking... ive decided to be positive... and consider the source... and how i would have handled it... and that makes me question everything more. i dont even know... it just seemed reachable... but maybe it still is... well see if i get a call on thursday.

kandie is sick like a dog... sniffle sniffle... hehe i hope she gets better for tonight... but either way we'll have fun... like always. im not the biggest metallica fan... but i mean it IS metallica and i think that is enough said... and kandie will meet mike and my match making skills will again be proven to be a success... anyone need a hot date? contact me and i will hook you up.

thanks to chris for the tickets... i owe you a life supply of life savers and music knowledge... you m'dear are better than grand & toy... although ive ever been in that store like once... and they sell school supplies so really i dont even understand the correlation... how cool am i.

thats it. no boy. box tickets. /\/\etallica. kandie sick. thanks to chris.... see how simple things really could be.